Posted by whiterabbit on May 5, 2003, at 16:56:44
In reply to Re: Psychs vs. Norms, posted by shar on May 4, 2003, at 23:31:53
Each morning I wake up a little more calm and a little more accepting, but I was PMSing or something this weekend and got a little weepy. I marched up to my husband, who was relaxing in front of the TV, and I said, "Someday you might get sick, too, you know."
He sighed loudly and I said, "You might." Then I turned and walked off.Well guess what. Last night he had a heart attack.
I feel like I'm living in a soap opera these days.
This morning I got up and packed a bag for him -
I knew pretty much what he would be wanting, having been hospitalized 3 times in the last 3 years for psychiatric reasons - and went to see him in ICU. The first thing I said was, "Well isn't this a change."He looked very pale and tired and a little frightened. He's had a cardiac cath and the doctor showed me before and after x-ray pictures of the artery that was blocked. He'll be in ICU for at least one more night, then they'll move him to another floor and keep an eye on him for a day or two just to be sure.
I had been with him for about half an hour when the nurse came in and said to my husband, "You have another visitor, there's a young lady here to see you." I turned around and glared at him, and then I got ready to walk around the bed and yank the IVs right out of his arm. I figured I could probably get the catheter out too before they dragged me away, but it was just Lauren, my son's girlfriend. Damn good thing for him.
Aside from that dramatic moment, I've been wonderfully detached from all this...not to be nasty, but a couple of months ago this person announced that he didn't love me anymore and that he intended to end our 20-year relationship because he "deserved a chance to be happy".Since then he's been coming and going like he's single already, ignoring my grief, unconcerned that my own heart was breaking. Pretty ironic, eh?
I guess those voodoo dolls DO work.
-Gracie
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