Posted by jodie on March 12, 2003, at 0:00:09
Does anyone ever get that feeling that people could care less if you exist or not? I feel so unimportant right now. I have always been that way. No self esteem & always in need of reassurance. Why can't I just forget about what others think of me. Thats what my life is about, trying to please everyone else. I always put my needs & feelings last. Yet I'm called selfish & inconsiderate....I don't understand. When friends tell me not to worry about what others think & just take care of myself it seems easy. Haha...right, I don't think I'll ever quit trying to please everyone else & put others needs before mine.
Sorry, just feeling a little down right now. I'm having those thoughts that I haven't done anything in life for myself or anyone. I feel like I'm just a waste of oxygen.
Just to clarify...I AM NOT suicidal....just really depressed. I am just in one of those moods where I want to hide from the world for a while. Actually thats what I have been doing.
I am stressed because I just got accepted to college, I want to become a registered nurse. I start the first summer session. The paperwork (financial aid,loans, admissions & whatever else) have been overwhelming. Now I have to take a placement test to see where I need to begin. I have been out of high school for 9 years & am so nervous about that. I went to the college web site & tried out some sample ?'s....yeah right, I am so not ready for it. I am horrible at math of any kind. Grrrrrrr..... Once again I am questioning, am I going to college for myself, or to please everyone else?
I am just venting, you don't have to respond!!!!
Sorry I have been away for a few days, just haven't been in a good mood.
Hi everyone, I've missed you!!!!
Jodie
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