Posted by beardedlady on February 27, 2003, at 7:50:24
Last minute, a friend said let's go, so, surprising even myself, I went! (I stayed up past nine! Woo!)
This was a major accomplishment for me. I rarely go to anything that lasts longer than 10:30, and I never do it on a weeknight.
So, although Graham Parker was not on my "must see" list, the venue was blocks away and is owned by a friend. So it was waaaaaay worth the $20 just to A.) help out friend with struggling business; B.) socialize with friends; and C.) prove that I can stay up past 10:30 and still fall asleep. Never mind that Graham was brilliant and cute and funny, and that his opening act, Bree Sharp, was excellent.
I got home at 11:30 and slept from midnight to 7. I feel wonderful!
Little triumphs like these give me more faith in therapy. My doctors have all said that the moment I stop caring about my sleep is the moment I'll start sleeping again. I have made it such a big deal in my life that it has kept me from doing things that could be fun for my spirit. (I haven't seen the new year roll around since I was carrying my daughter, and even then I had already fallen asleep in a chair!)
So we worked on the fact that we can't control some things (like insomnia or depression), but we can control other things, like how much we exercise (I've been doing an aerobics tape at least 5 times a week for a month now). We can also do other things that help us relinquish the control, be more laid back about it, etc.
So I've been doing many of those things--going to bed at 10:30 every night instead of nine, writing in my journal, working hard, meditating sometimes, not looking at the clock at night. And sleep happens anyway--good sleep.
I've only had to take two sleeping pills in the last two weeks (yea!--pronounced "yay," by the way), and once was because someone called the wrong number twice in the middle of the night, and I was pissed.
So I'm rambling now about stuff no one cares about, and that's okay, I think. If anyone's still listening, thanks. I'm feeling a little, well, perky.
beardy : )>
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