Posted by beautiful_mind on February 4, 2003, at 1:28:53
Tuesday has been the routine for about a year now to see my doctor in the morning. I am on Depakote, Respiradol, and Prozac, which they all seem to be working beautifully. I don't know what I'll be discussing with my doctor tomorrow. The medicine is not really an issue either. In the near future I will be returning to college and enrolling very soon for the next term. So I guess I look forward to seeing my most recent psychiatrist. His style I like, and mostly the tone at which he gives his help in words is likely to be received well. There is no holding back when I go there. I subjects are usually focused. Change of subject tonight I was at the cafe alone again and didn't feel as paranoid, it seems my paranoia wore off earlier today, when I was feeling a bit then. Really my days can be a drag without having a regular lifestyle with job independence or socializing on a regular basis outside of Mom and Dad, and my Brother here at home. The usual is good, though I wish for better at night, and during the bordom of a day wasted. Sometimes around the early evening I feel the best, maybe I'm more depressed with the sunlight out during the day because I associate that with time not well spent. I collect and sell records, from thrifts to ebay and am doing pretty good with that. I enjoy collecting during the day which is mostly what I've been doing for quite a while since my last job I left or walked out on when the heat there was unbelievably high including an harrassment charge to me, for sending emails to somebody I worked with. The heat was high just dealing with that damn job until it all it the fan that afternoon, I went looney for a while and didn't work since and was hospitalized twice plus the cafe incident, RE: cafe. But that's now in the past as is the last 12 years struggling in and out of college taking too many units without much prevail, and now Bachelors degree, only an AA. Now I want to go back for BFA in fine artist to be an artist. A passion of mine. With my meds a lot has cleared up these days. But life is still dragging it's heals as far as I'm concerned. I do not see a girlfriend on the horizon and I thought I was going to be married in my twenties not single thirty-something. I do have a very close friend whom I share a lot with, but we are emotionally close to some degree, but she may not be blood but is related. This puts a bit of a clinch in dating, since I really never have and I'm not sure I still have yet even with her. It all is not much to say of though I know it's all in time. Thanks.
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