Posted by Anna Laura on December 24, 2002, at 4:40:49
In reply to Re: THANKS » Anna Laura, posted by Pfinstegg on December 22, 2002, at 11:49:57
> You're welcome, Ana Laura. It would be good to watch the racing thoughts carefully; being bipolar, it may not be the best thing to be on an AD, even an atypical one like bupropion, without being on a low dose of a mood stabilizer at the same time. I think you said Depakote and Tegretol didn't work well; how about a low dose of Lamictal?
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> It's not the way you think; here on the board people can say whatever they feel like saying, and there is someone who kind of "resonates" with it- both in understanding the feelings because they have had the same ones themselves, and because we can sometimes help one another approach our illnesses a little more objectively- as complicated problems to be solved, step by step. It's not a question of over-involvement, but rather of interest. I will say, I do hope you keep posting to let us know what is happening; however, it doesn't need to be directed at me.
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> Pfinstegg
Hi Pfinstegg
I'm taking fish oil as you suggested at the moment.
This is my third day with Bupropion and I'm feeling better already; the racing thoughts i told you about are not being worsened by the drug at the moment: they're getting better actually, since i feel stronger and more capable to fight them back. I'll be watching over, though.
The thoughts i was reffering to are always the same; they started along with my depression long time ago and never went away really. They're like "realistic" obsessions like "I'll never recover" and so forth.
They're frantic semi-rational efforts to find a way out of this pit.
They got worse as my anhedonia and apathy got worse, like a compensation for my sensorial and emotional deprivation. I probably chose the wrong term when i used the word "getting involved"; i meant something like to bother or to annoy with an emotional component ; i don't know if ther's such a word in english, my mental dictionary is limited - i'm good only with words with a latin derivation; anyway, what i meant to say is that when i feel this way i just ruminate endlessly and i feel i can't be helped no matter what; i feel like it all depends on me, that i should start creating a little place for hope inside of me so that other people can work on that little spot and make it grow via emotional feed-back; and that's hard 'cause i feel emotionally detached; i began to feel that way around the sixth/seventh year of my illness.
How can you be helped if you're constantly emotionally detached?
; or may be you're right, it's just a matter of emotional resonation so that all i need is some emotional chords to be touched and vibrate and these "rational" thoughts are all false rationalizations leading me nowhere; may be they're plain old obsessions in disguise.
poster:Anna Laura
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