Posted by Peter S. on December 20, 2002, at 13:52:10
In reply to The witches (warlock's?) brew » Peter S., posted by Kar on December 19, 2002, at 23:25:11
Hey Kar,
> Peter- was trying to send you some psychic peace today. I think maybe the cloudiness was impeding the transmission.
Thanks- I really appreciate it. Probably all the rain and storm here in Northern Cal is getting in the way.
>I find that I can fake it rather well with people that don't know me. I'm always beating myself up about not doing as well as I could've if I'd felt better, but people don't seem to notice...The damn urgency of finding the job is just making things so much harder, I agree.
I wish I could fake it- it's great that you can do that. I've been wondering how to act non-depressed and I still haven't figured that one out.
> What has happened on previous interviews (specifically)? Do you think you're coming off as badly as you think you are? Sometimes it's so hard to be objective...I know you left feeling negative but what do ya think about them? So hard to even do a "practice" interview because until you do the real thing you don't know how bad it'll be. You worked steadily before, right?
>I've had interviews for jobs that I've been practically over-qualified for and somehow screwed them up. I'm not totally sure how but I think it's pretty much nervousness which leads directly into self-defeating thoughts and behaviors.
> The frustration- well, i can spout all I want and it won't make a difference to you, but i can't allow YOU to to take all of the blame. You have some chemicals that are misbehaving and we just need to get them under control. Please try not to be frustrated with yourself, but with the illness. It ain't your fault, dude.
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> I'm sure another more wise one could help you with your mix. Do you like/trust your doc?Aah chemicals. That's the nub. Unfortunately all the drugs I've taken have been ineffective or pooped out. I really like my pdoc and he has been incredibly patient and willing to try almost anything and any combination. Lamictal does help to some extent but not enought to feel really functional. So I'm left with this particular reality. Yuck!
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> And if you must bang your head, use a cushion or something. That's just not going to help your presentation at your next interviews. You know, you threatened lobotomy before so Should we even trust you anymore? (A smile goes here).Alright you got me- I wasn't serious about the lobotomy or head-banging. What I was thinking was a powerful electric drill. Maybe I'll go to Sears today...
Thanks again for the support!
Best,
Peter
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