Posted by Mikhail99 on December 20, 2002, at 8:56:42
In reply to I get urges sometimes..., posted by Dinah on December 20, 2002, at 5:49:24
> Suicidal urges, self injury urges. They're not plaguing me right now, but there have been times when they did, and there will probably be times when they do again.
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> I can accept that they aren't appropriate to talk about everywhere. My husband can't handle them, so I don't discuss them with him. I talk to my therapist about them, and that's about it. But if I keep them bottled up, they get so much worse. Talking about them releases some of their power.
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> I daresay that if I ever truly decide to kill myself, I won't tell anyone outside of my therapist (I've promised him that I will let him help me, even if it means hospitalization). Telling someone would be relatively counterproductive, since they could conceivable stop me.
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> Is this a place where I shouldn't talk about those urges? Or is there a way that I could, and ways that it wouldn't be good to do so? Is the board like my husband?
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> I'm asking from a pretty good place right now. I don't feel like harming myself at the moment. So I'm just gathering information for the future. I could keep these issues just to my therapist.
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> But what about all those people who don't presently have a therapist or who, because of the situation, can't get one? Is this considered an inappropriate safety valve to release some of the pain and pressure?
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> I understand that each of us individually may be too fragile to bear another's pain, but are we collectively too fragile?
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> Just questions thrown out while I'm feeling good, so that I won't be hurt when I'm feeling bad.
Dinah, I believe that this IS the place to talk about those urges. With a few exceptions, I've found this site to be a very caring and supportive area to talk about those things that we can't tell our loved ones. I can't tell my husband about all my anxieties and fears, it makes him uncomfortable and he doesn't understand it at all. Of course, discussing your urges to hurt yourself is a much more serious topic. I think there are a lot of people who visit this site who share your thoughts and fears and may offer you comfort when you can't find it anywhere else. And you're right, it's a good time to ask if you're feeling good right now. I hope it continues.
Take care!
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