Posted by syringachalet on December 17, 2002, at 21:13:58
In reply to What I want from Santa ..., posted by Willow on December 14, 2002, at 21:50:36
For just one day, i would like to live without fear. To sleep through the night without waking in a cold sweat and remembering the faces..only a part of the faces.. of the people who hurt me so deeply; who raped my trust and threw me away.
For just one waking hour, i would like to be able to hug those in my life who need a hug even more than me. For feel safe enough to give and recieve the caring and tenderness that once was the one thing so many people whom have known me for years hint that is somehow missing.
For just five minutes, i would like to be able to not feel guilt when i have a sexual thought or urge and consider acting on it to not only have release but to possible have a moment of pleasure even at the cost of possible physical pain...i dont think Santa has anything in his magic sack for me this year...i guess.
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