Posted by tai on October 22, 2002, at 23:32:52
...our relationship is no more. It was really difficult anyways because she lives overseas and busy with work and school and play, and here I am with no work, no school, no play, just all day to sit and constantly examine everything in my life. My idle mind is more dangerous to me than anyone could ever be.
But she just doesnt respond when I try to let her know what I am going through. I know she doest understand, and therefore doesnt care. We are so lucky here in the US where mental illness is taken seriously and where their are trained proffesionals to help us with it. In other countries, its just like depression? what? get over it. And that is the culture she came from. Sucks, I really, really liked her. but how could she ever give me the care I need if she will never understand.
I am trying to get myself to believe that this decision will cause me less pain in the future, but damn, its hurts really bad right now.
poster:tai
thread:31558
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