Posted by Dinah on October 21, 2002, at 12:06:54
In reply to Re: Cycles and triggers--Dinah, posted by ROO on October 21, 2002, at 11:33:22
It doesn't annoy me Roo. And I know you're right. But I can only be this objective because I'm partway out of it. While I'm in it I'm 99% sure that regardless of my cycles, that my distorted thoughts are correct, everything is horrible especially me, and I have every reason to be so upset. There is a teeny part of me that says, ok this has happened before, you'll lose five pounds and be okay. But that part gets shouted down pretty quickly. :)
But I could ease up on the between episode analyzing I guess. To some extent I'm getting better at just accepting that that's the way I'm going to be. Now I have to work on getting those around me to accept that, because naturally I'm not all that easy to live with.
But... there's still a part of me that believes that if I could just identify the triggers everything would be okay.
And now we're back to square one.
Increasing the depakote never really occurs to me, because I'm sleeping if anything too much and I don't really feel hypomanic. Does it work for this part of the cycle too? Klonopin doesn't work all that well for it, although I guess it keeps me alive by curbing the worst of the excesses. Because I get incredibly self destructive. If it is indeed part of the cyclothymia.
And now we're back to square one yet again. Obviously I have not stopped the obsessive loops.
Thanks Roo,
Dinah
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