Posted by Medusa on August 29, 2002, at 11:33:53
In reply to Re: eating and body issues and depression » Medusa, posted by automated lady on August 29, 2002, at 9:35:44
Hi automatedlady,
> I know my body issues and my depression are inseparable.
That's a start!
>I don't vomitI did this just at the end. For almost three years back-to-back without exception, I was abstinent in an OA Greysheet group. (Heard of them? They're hard core!) Then I went through an ugly breakup, and suddenly couldn't keep my weighed-and-measured-and-committed-to-my-sponsor meals down - the nausea and self-disgust were so bad, my body just forced vomiting. My sponsor had no idea how to deal with this, but I clearly wasn't abstinent any more by that group definition, even if I hadn't "eaten" or "slipped". So I ended up really eating, bingeing and vomiting, and that went on for a year or so. But most of my years of eating problems were overeating and bingeing, and I always fit through doors so noone believed I had a problem.
>addicted to sugarI believed this for a long time, too. My current perspective is that OA is conducive to lifelong eating problems - it arrests the symptoms, but leaves the root problems intact with plenty of room to flourish. Once I legalised, truly legalised sugar and everything else I wanted to eat, my body was able to start asserting its desire for ... vegetables. Yup, sometimes I want a big bowl of salad. Other times I want potato chips, and open a huge bag and then after two or three I lose interest.
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hey I have to run, but I'll come back to the rest of your post. This is interesting stuff for me - I wonder if I'll be able to one day look back on the issues I have now the way I do on the extreme eating, and, I think it's important for me to look at what went into that accomplishment.M
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