Posted by fiona on August 17, 2002, at 14:36:05
In reply to Re: Jumping off the wagon, posted by Phil on August 17, 2002, at 11:40:05
Right now I feel pretty sick with a throbbing head. I know that I shouldn't have done it, but I sooo needed to let my hair down. I think I'm just at a stage where I'm sick of taking my meds at the proper times, not drinking or taking drugs, and generally being the most boring person on the planet because I have forgotten how to have a good time. It wouldn't be so bad, but I don't feel that all my hard work (and it was VERY hard) was getting me anywhere. I am still ill, still off work, still crazy!
I just wanted to feel. To relax. To have fun. I know I don't need to be drunk to have a good time, but I just thought "stuff it, I am going to get absolutely plastered!" Just once. The problem now is that I would quite like to do it again. Oh dear :(
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