Posted by Phil on August 16, 2002, at 7:16:01
In reply to Hi all, posted by Greg A. on August 15, 2002, at 17:46:07
Greg, I just turned 49, never got married, bought a house once and lost it(and everything else)and never had kids. I'll never be able to retire unless a miracle happens. It's just about impossible for me to make any relationship work or to want to try. I fight with that 'what's left' feeling every day. In other words, I know how you feel despite the different paths.
I hope you find happiness and do your best to get off the booze. My family of origin were alcoholics and that has shaped my life negatively more than anything else.
Your daughters will always need you and love you and have hopes for your happiness. I'm sure the drinking scares them. I hope you don't allow it to go too far. I've seen the low bottom and I would not wish it on anyone in this world.
Anyway, I just wanted you to know that you aren't alone and, despite our thoughts about a grim future, it's still our choice to be content. Maybe not happy, but content in knowing there's a reason we've stuck around and need to move forward.
Your post really touched me and I hope we both find what we need. Or just realize how blessed we are. When your depression subsides, you can think of what has meaning for you now and do that.
There are no rules. As my mom used to say, it's your expectations. She was right.Phil
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