Posted by Mashogr8 on August 2, 2002, at 11:19:30
In reply to Re: Just don't like people anymore... » libbyh, posted by allisonm on August 2, 2002, at 8:07:51
I can definitely relate to not liking people anymore. It is scary, isn't it? I am tired of smiling and saying nice things that are supposed to be said. People do like me because they say I am a good listener. However, I may not be speaking, but I'm really not listening to them either. If they talk too long and ask me a question, I often do not have the answer because I have gotten lost in my own thoughts or empty head. I have thought of all sorts of ways or reasons to miss activities so I didn't have to communicate with people. I don't worry about breaking down in front of them. I don't cry anymore and haven't cried for at least 89-9 years. I just find it exhausting to be on the "alert" around others. I don't want to have to be good ole Mary.
This summer has been a godsend. My husband has been away a lot. I went to visit my parents right after he came back. Now he has to catch up on all kinds of work and he isn't asking what/where are doing/going and with whom? Things will slow down though and I'll have to face it again.
I'm trying to work on some cluttering problem (disaster) I have and I don't know which friend to trust and beg for help. We're discussing it in therapy but there sure is a lot garbage that is standing in the way.(No pun intended).
MA
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