Posted by Angel Girl on July 3, 2002, at 21:48:41
In reply to Re: Do you ever feel.... » Angel Girl, posted by Phil on July 3, 2002, at 18:45:18
Phil
You see alot more in me than I see in myself. I've been searching my whole life for love and I haven't found it. I've been told it is there but I don't know how to accept it. How can a person not know how to accept love??? Love is something that seems so foreign to me, at least as far as receiving it. I do feel that I have lots of love to give to others. All I seem to ever feel is pain, not only my own but also that of others. When I see other people posting their pain, I hurt right along with them. I feel their pain as if it is mine. I'm drawn into it.
I want to feel some joy and happiness for a change. I'm tired of the tears every day. I'm tired of my feelings being so fragile. I too look at people on the street and wish I could be like them when I see the smiles on their faces or a warm embrace shared. I'm also tired and angered when I'm told to 'snap out of it'. I hate when people who know absolutely nothing about depression so freely give uneducational advice. I also think there is nothing worse than depression.
I try to find hope but lately I'm feeling like I'm being dragged down more and more. Each day is no better than the day before and I wonder why anybody would want to continue going through their life with this continual emotional pain. If I could have one day without tears and find something to be excited about, then I could see there is hope and it would be easier to keep going on.
I'm glad you understand my pain but it also saddens me too because for you to understand it means you are living it and I hate to see anybody living in the same pain that I am.
I hope someday we can all find a way to rise above it all.
Thank you for your support and very kind words.
Angel Girl
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