Posted by Gracie2 on July 3, 2002, at 15:48:36
In reply to Re: Meds take away all the fun » Zo, posted by ShelliR on July 1, 2002, at 20:20:26
Since starting meds for bipolar disorder, I no longer experience the manic highs that brought such energy and great creativity. As an artist, this was very important to me. I would stay up most of the night painting or cleaning or both, and go to my "regular job" after only a couple of hours of sleep. I could sustain this level of energy for about two weeks at a time.
But the lows were oh, so low. All I wanted to do was sleep. I became depressed and cried frequently. I would become hysterical, paranoid, depressed, even suicidal.
With medication, my creativity and motivation has suffered. I have less energy. My memory is not as good, my thinking not as sharp. But I no longer suffer from anxiety, insomnia and hopelessness. I have accepted this as a fair trade-off, at least for now.
-Gracie
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