Posted by Bookgurl99 on June 20, 2002, at 20:37:52
In reply to Re: Relationships... and their vicissitudes » bookgurl99, posted by wendy b. on June 20, 2002, at 11:25:18
Sarah and I just had a big fight tonight. We were shopping for clothes at Wal-Mart, and she was dragging her heels, acting mopey. (She did the same thing last week at Home Depot -- and who can't have fun at Home Depot? It's like Disneyland for lesbians!!!) Anyways, I exploded and told her to be less passive and actually tell me if she doesn't want to do something. Lately, it seems like she doesn't want to have fun at all. She enjoys actively not enjoying herself. Despite all she does for me (and it is enormous), I'm starting to consider other women.
I think part of my hesitation is that:
1) she treats me like gold, and2) she was with me and was my main support while I found out why I was having memory problems, while my 'friends' and 'family' fled in fear., and
3) the woman that I was truly in love with left me when I developed OCD. I fear that no one else will truly love me, that I should be with Sarah because she's "the best I can do."
I know these are totally wrong reasons for staying in the relationship. Part of me keeps thinking that maybe I can just work on the things that are wrong with the relationship, though.
And meanwhile, photograph beautiful women.
p.s. I took the most awesome photo of a family that was camping. I will try to find a place where I can post the photo so you can see it.
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