Posted by Penny on May 24, 2002, at 11:52:24
In reply to This is not a medication post., posted by Dinah1 on May 24, 2002, at 8:59:33
I totally understand. I guess that's sort of what I meant about a 'fear of getting better' in my earlier post. Getting 'better', whatever that is, also means leaving behind a comfort zone for me. Depression, while painful and possibly lethal, is also comforting. It protects me from many of the things I'm most afraid of. It provides a tap into my more creative (albeit dark) side. It allows me to get attention from people who at least act as though they really care for me (my doc, therapist, etc.). If I'm not depressed, who am I? Do I matter?
I applaud you on being brave enough to do what you feel you must, Dinah. Only you can make that choice, no matter how hard it might be. And perhaps it won't be a forever choice.
Too bad there's no 'happy medium' for most of us. Sure would be nice if there were.
Love, Penny
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