Posted by kid_A on April 26, 2002, at 18:40:02
In reply to I'm so tired, posted by fiona on April 26, 2002, at 15:02:15
fiona,
i can't tell you how to be happy, because i don't know how to be happy myself, and odds are what would work for me wouldn't work for you...i'll be honest, i don't even think i can tell you that i know how this story ends, i often wonder if i'll be depressed all my life... like you said, its sort of like the myth of Sisyphus, condemned to roll a heavy rock up a hill only to have that rock come tumbling down, over and over...
what i can tell you is that IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT, we may be depressed or anxious or any miriad of emotions may befall us, but that doesnt mean that we are weak, or -defective- or that even, even in the darkest depth of depression when suicide enters our mind, we are just simply overwhelmed by what troubles us, and what troubles us outweighs what we have in the means of coping mechanisms... thats all...
hell, i don't even like myself that much, but i'll be damned if i'll feel bad on top of everything else about my depression... all i can say is this, it only gets better if you go forward... if you stop and give up, it goes nowhere... again, i don't have any answers, thats what i'm trying to learn to do right now... just keep going forward... with any luck, with a few help from people here, i just may do that...
keep in mind, there are people who understand how you feel, perhaps not exactly because we're all different, but you're amoungst good company, don't forget that...
poster:kid_A
thread:22670
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20020422/msgs/22678.html