Posted by allisonf on March 28, 2002, at 17:07:56
In reply to Allison, Are you OK? » allisonf, posted by Dinah on March 28, 2002, at 8:20:21
Hi Dinah, Penny, Wendy, Dr. Bob and all the other people who have posted supportive messages for me,
***Thank you!*** No, that one post, tho mildly insulting, didn't drive me away (see my instinctive reply--I did it before I read all the other supportive comments, which I really appreciate!) I'm sorry I've been away from the bd for a few days...I had a session on Tues. and I have been having some trouble dealing with it. I went in all prepared (yes, I actually rehearsed it!) to talk about why I have trouble disclosing things to her (thus getting into the transference issues that I know she wants to hold off talking about) and we ended up on another topic entirely (partly b/c I didn't want to go against her wishes to not talk about the transference). So, I've spent the past few days calling and leaving various messages (she tried me once, but has been I think busy with the holiday)about how I have more to tell her, etc. but now I am so frustrated, I am thinking of quitting therapy altogether. I know that one should not quit things when they get difficult, that transference is actually a positive sign, but...therapy is just becoming too all-consuming! I just want things to be back the way they used to be between us, and in my own life. Any advice? I know you will all say I should hang in there, but I'm not sure how. I did try the idea you had Dinah, about imagining things thru to a conclusion, but I got stuck on the fact that I don't even know how it would all play out--it's not as straightforward as imagining for example, whether I would like being a speech therapist, know what I mean? If I imagined my therapist and I living together--would we be dealing with each others' children and messy divorces? I can't even visualize going there...But thank you *so so much* for the In Session recommendation. I just got it today and it looks great! Thank you again for asking about me.
Penny, hope you are doing well, and I second the someone who said that you shd use this thread to talk about things. Also, I will definitely send you an e-mail soon. Thanks for being so supportive.
Also, Wendy, I appreciate your wonderful post.
Sorry, Dr. Bob, my other post was just a reflex. Sorry for the language.
I will keep you posted...any added thoughts would certainly be appreciated!
Allison
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