Posted by noa on March 4, 2002, at 14:51:43
In reply to Re: Noa - Questions regarding a post from 1/01, posted by Penny on March 2, 2002, at 20:09:03
Hi. Things are pretty good--certainly in terms of that issue, which is so central. I am not so split off anymore. It took a long time to get to this point, and if I had been limited to short term therapy, I don't know where I'd be now. Of course, it is still something for me to grapple with now and into the future---that is the point---accepting the grappling as part of life. Recently, I had a kind of panic experience in which my helpless/hopeless buttons were pushed and my amygdala took over completely, it seems. I was instantly transported to a pre-verbal emotional state seemingly impervious to language and logic. The mood lasted about 2 days and then dissipated. So you see it isn't totally gone, but at least my usual, "normal" functioning is good, and I am not cutting off my potential for depression when I am not depressed, so I am therefore not living in a state of fear-of-depression. I hope that makes sense.
I don't know of any books about this. Maybe journalling will help you--as Penny said, you are a superb writer and I know that writing is therapeutic for me. I think there is something about writing that really helps integrate different parts of our brain in processing what we experience.
As for the ADD/LD, is there a support group you can go to? Also, you could be eligible for voc/rehab services depending on how that is defined in your state. In some places, having an LD qualifies you for voc/rehab and sometimes that could mean they pay for therapy in addition to career counseling or training or supports to help you through college. But the level of service available and the eligibility probably varies a lot depending on where you live.
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