Posted by Gracie2 on December 31, 2001, at 14:56:54
In reply to Am I depressed?, posted by bonnie_ann on December 21, 2001, at 19:31:47
I don't think you're depressed at all (unless you're holding back details). I think you're worried about not "fitting in".
I also do not "fit in". I loathe small talk. I avoid crowds, which means concerts, parties and bars. I was probably the first person on earth to own a Caller ID. My idea of Hell is one never-ending babyshower. I do not encourage friendship with my neighbors because I don't want them "dropping in". I'm content with the few friends I have who respect my wishes and I'm still close to most of my family, although I have lost contact with family and friends who find me
"anti-social". So be it. As far as I'm concerned, a true friend accepts you as you are, quirks and all.
I don't particularly dislike people, but the things I prefer to do are solitary things. I paint and write and read avidly. I work on my 100-year-old house and refinish furniture. I'm much, much happier working on one of my projects than standing around some boring cocktail party watching people get drunk and gossip about other people. This always makes me feel as if I am not the abnormal person in that room.
This outlook has come with maturity. In my 20s and early 30s, I wanted desperately to be popular and "fit in". I was always unhappy, because that was not me. You have one life, you must find your niche, and screw what other people think. ;-)
Gracie
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