Posted by Dinah on December 22, 2001, at 19:13:19
In reply to Dinah - Are you ok?, posted by Mair on December 22, 2001, at 17:57:17
Thanks for asking, Mair. It really means a lot to me.
My son is so excited about Christmas. It's fun to watch him. He's not only an only child but an only grandchild on both sides so Christmas is always like Disneyland to him. He's a delightful and solemn little boy.
My appointment was actually hilarious. He had forgotten a lot of what had happened, which was just as well since I had behaved badly indeed. He wasn't angry with me. We spent most of the session talking about trust and the therapeutic committment, and about how I didn't have to scan every moment for a threat of termination. We tried to work on my inability to accept the dichotomy that I could trust him while at the same time he himself has admitted he could decide not to work with me tomorrow, although he says that is a remote possibility. We also spoke about my visceral reaction to the uncertainty in his scheduling procedures.
Here is the funny part. After all that, he tells me he has decided to see patients next week. I checked to make sure that if I accepted an appointment that he would understand it wasn't the week's vacation I was upset about, but the uncertainty. THEN HE ASKS ME IF WE CAN MAKE THE APPOINTMENT FLEXIBLE, SO THAT IF HE HAS TO CHANGE THE TIME OR DAY THAT HE CAN. At that point, it just became plain funny. How can you respond to that? So, I'm not upset because I have reached that profound state of acceptance about the issue. He's not going to change. It's time for me to practice my distress tolerance skills. LOL.
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