Posted by Sourceror on December 18, 2001, at 18:21:23
Why does it feel wrong having a couple of days where I am not totally miserable? I am not utterly happy and bouncing off the walls but at least I am not contemplating suicide with the majority of my free time. I am also very scared and walking on egg shells wondering when the ball is going to drop again. It is almost like I feel guilty for not feeling miserable. I hope this continues on because I know that the way I have been feeling has scared several of you that have cared about me and it has scared me wondering if I was going to give in to my desires to OD. Thanks for caring everyone and I will take it one day at a time I guess and see what happens. I go in for an eval for a partial day program the day after christmas so this may provide the help I need for staying afloat after the holidays.
L8R,
The Sourceror
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