Posted by kid_A on December 15, 2001, at 22:32:22
I like drugs, I am not in anyway a druggie, I dont use any considerable portion of my income to buy drugs, but I enjoy using drugs, maybe it feels good, maybe it makes me forget that I'm unhappy the way that the rest of the 'legal' drugs I take are supposed to do.Maybe somebody likes cake, and when they eat cake they don't think of anything else, and it makes them happy, and their metabolism is such that they dont gain weight, so even if they ate cake every day, and it didnt consume their financial resources, or disturb their every day life in a detrimental way, they could eat cake as much as they wanted.
There was a day when I would have considered myself a druggie, I hung around druggies, peoples who's soul existance was getting drugs and doing them... I'm not like that anymore, because I didn't want to be like that, I didn't want to be down in the sewer, trying to get out again... rats rally.
But still now, if there are drugs, I'll do them, it doesn't bother me, and when I'm done, its done, I am not fanatical about it... it just happens... Sometimes I take more medication than I should, sometimes I misuse medication... what does that make me?
At work I am fully functional and able to do my job, if anything consumes my finances it would be music, as I'm a music nut... I love music and I buy it all the time... To me, the music is like a drug, it makes me happy, and when I buy a new record or cd I think about that thing and yes, it makes me happy.
My question, what constitutes addiction? And if those qualifiers are not met, does that mean that you are truly not an addict... I know many people who do drugs on a regular basis who live amazingly well adjusted lives and are quite successfull with what they do.
I love to read, I love music, I love the idea of the Film, I have passions that consume my life much more than drugs do, am I an addict because I use drugs? Is the idea of a habitually used perscribed drug different than the use of the same drug unperscribed?
Beyond the good doctor's "okay", what does it mean?
poster:kid_A
thread:15623
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