Posted by nightlight on December 14, 2001, at 0:32:28
In reply to Defeated/Haunted by my own ineptitude, posted by tina on December 13, 2001, at 8:34:46
> Every day I do something stupid. something I regret. Something that causes guilt to haunt my mind. Some things may seem small to others but they are huge to me. I constantly feel as though I can't show my face outside my home. Sometimes I feel I can't show my face inside my home. I'm always terrified of what others must think of me.
> I just want to hide. I'm fine for a minute and then, I just want to run away, change my name and start my life all over again.
>
> Is there a pill for this?? Am I alone in this feeling? What is it?Dear Tina~
YOU ARE NOT ALONE. I have been wracked w/feelings of guilt & inadequacy for decades. Hiding, stressing out, over-reacting, thinking th worst of myself.I was /am an underachiever, who was expected to have a brilliant scholastic future.
HA! I had undiagnosed ADD, and IQ can't fill in for life/school management skills (which Itotally lacked) that began to haunt me from around 15 onward. But that was the early '70's in the deep south, it took dropping out of college (flunking out) rotten job & bad marriage ending in divorce for me to seek prof'l help.
Now, at 45, I am finaally on some meds and therapy that HELP me (so far-only 2mos.)
I gotta run.
U take care
I'll keep in touch.Sorry u're blue. I STILL do the stupid stuff, but try not to blow it out of proportion. Do u have a therapist at this time, and what are u're meds?
Night for now.nightlight
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