Posted by kid_A on November 8, 2001, at 9:07:59
I've been cutting myself since I was young, its certainly tapered off a great deal, but I had another recent episode where I did some fairly deep cuts in my right arm... A considerable feat to say the least since I'm right handed...I don't equate this to suicide ideation, but in the times when I've done it, it has been the only thing that snaps me out of whatever trauma I had been experiencing... I'm certainly not 'happy' afterwards, but for some reason I'm distracted enough to distance myself from the mental anguish I was feeling...
I just wanted to know if anyone else has personal or relative experience with this? Why do you do it? As my doctor asked me, how does it make you feel afterwards? I'm wondering what makes someone do this as apposed to not doing it. I've read about children who do this sort of thing as a schizm when they are very young, but I dont think that relates... For me it has always followed a major anxiety attack and also seems to quell that anxiety at least for the moment...
Any insights are greatly appreciated...
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