Posted by Kristi on August 18, 2001, at 20:48:38
Hi.....
I responded to a post of yours briefly above.... but sometimes it helps to know someone is going thru the same thing.... and I want to say again, I know how you feel. I had breast cancer 2 years ago... had a tumor removed, and the surgeon left a cloth inside me. I have had so many surgeries and pain since.... and now find out there is more cloth still and have to go thru it all over again. My depression comes from wondering if this will ever end?????? And all because of someone elses mistake. But I go in a week from tuesday..... terrified already as usual... and no one seems to understand. I think their thinking is... well, she must be used to it by now. But I again have to take off work, am broke... will get broker ... and have a f'in tube hanging out of me for about 2 months... again. My life just hasn't been the same. I haven't let to many people in.... I'm single... and come up with reasons when someone wants to go on a "third" date... I just don't want to bring someone else into my life. It just doesn't seem fair.
But my thoughts really are with you.... and just think, since you won't have my luck(since most people don't)...... your surgery will fix you, you'll be better than ever.... and hopefully that'll fix some of the depression. I can also relate to you with the fact about the narcotics. I was hooked for a long time, took me even longer to get off of them... so I refuse to take them this time.... which will probably be more pain. I understand so much of what your saying. Sorry for venting so much..hang in there. Kristi.
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