Posted by AKC on July 29, 2001, at 14:49:24
In reply to AKC, posted by Willow on July 29, 2001, at 13:54:42
> AKC
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> I was going to title the post personal or private, but figured that was a sure fired way to get everyone to read it. : )
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> Here I was playing house, and I was drawn back to the board because it just dawned on me something I believe you said in one of your posts. Correct me if I'm wrong! Did you say that you had never been intimate with someone else unless you were stoned?
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> Whispering WillowNot stoned, drunk!
Though, the handful of times I got stoned in my life, it made me hornier than all get out. But I was highly allergic to the smoke (I have never puffed once on a cigerette in my life -- despise them, if I am around for an instance now, I get very ill). Took me a dozen times or so smoking some weed to figure out why I was deathly ill the next day in a way alcohol never, ever left me! Slow learner. < grin >
I have a wall built around me, where I don't trust people to well. So it took a little lubrication to let down that wall to allow intimacy to occur. Now, in sobriety, I have gained all this weight, and I don't feel very sexy, outside a wonderful smile. But as I pointed out, I don't have any libido right now, so it isn't much missed. Hopefully, when the weigh loss comes, a sexy babe walks into my life, I'll have progressed in therapy to a point that intimacy will be possible without the booze.
AKC
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