Posted by AKC on July 26, 2001, at 6:40:48
In reply to Does anybody else feel like i do?, posted by Anna Laura on July 26, 2001, at 3:30:33
Anna Laura,
Oh so recently. In fact, that is what makes what is going on with me seem so much like a miracle (though I am adament right now in not believing in such a thing - it is that little white pill).
After three years of constant hell, I reached a point in May that I just couldn't keep going on. I had no reason to - if it was just going to keep being the same, what was the point? I started pestering my therapist with that question. What was the point? What was the point with getting up each day? I had a job. Big deal. I had a couple of friends. Big deal. I had a home. Big deal. Nothing mattered anymore. If all I was going to show for it was constant emotional pain, I just couldn't keep doing it.
I hope for you the effexor works (which is part of my cocktail, and has helped me for the most part with my depression, even though I did sink into a bad one in May - there was a lot that led to that, including my ingestion of alcohol for the first time in three years).
I would love to pass on to you the strength to hold on for a little while longer - I would hope that for you the miracle will be just around the corner. That this awful period you are going through will give you a break. I don't know how long mine will last. But everyone deserves one - I got mine - you deserve yours - I hope it arrives soon - I hope effexor brings it to you.
AKC
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