Posted by AKC on July 18, 2001, at 13:27:13
In reply to Re: pysch troubles, posted by Greg on July 18, 2001, at 12:46:36
sar,
Here is my two cents, for what it is worth --
First, I am kinda with Greg - no matter how awful the woman was to you, calling her names was kinda yucky - you will feel better for your own behavior if you apologize - sort of that AA twelve step philosophy of keeping your side of the street clean regardless of what the other person does. So even if she remains angry and unhelpful, you will feel better for doing what you know is right.
And I totally agree with everyone that it is time to move on. Her reaction to your suicide attempt is totally unprofessional - be it narcisstic, angry, fearful, whatever - yes, she is human and can have feelings, but dang, she is a professional, and her reaction is uncalled for. You are very vulnerable right now and need a lot of support - her reaction is not supportive - in fact, it is totally the opposite. Demanding of money, accusatory for not calling, so forth and so forth. I do hope you end the relationship.
However, I must insist (I have no right, but I am going to step over that line) that you go right out and begin to find a new therapist. You deserve a therapist who is supportive and who can help lead you on a path of recovery. I sometimes believe I am one of the lucky ones (I know I tend to talk about myself in all of my posts, but I know myself better than anyone - its the only experience, strength and hope I know how to share - another AA thing). I have found a couple of therapist (individual and group) and a pdoc, who are talented and caring. They root for me daily. They have gone out of their way. I have intruded in their lives so many times - sometimes I believe somewhat inappropriately. Every person deserves this - including you sar. And if you don't have this, you just got to keep looking.
I would get so mad in AA when I would hear someone say that you got to keep taking it one day at a time, one moment at a time until the miracle occurred. The miracle might be occurring for me right now - I'm scared to say so. But that damn little pill called topamax may have restored me to sanity. It's been three years of pure hell, with many years of purgatory before it. But what got me here? A damn good therapist and pdoc - find one! They exist. And this person you have been seeing. She ain't one!
Hope this helps.
Your resident hounddog.
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