Posted by Adam on July 3, 2001, at 19:45:21
In reply to All in the waiting..., posted by Adam on July 2, 2001, at 18:34:49
Thank you.
I suppose experiences like this teach us things, as hard as they can be. I can easily see myself, not long ago, behaving less-than admirably under similar circumstances. I have not fallen prey to impulse.
I think, as hard a lesson as it is to learn, it's valuable for us to recognize that this sort of thing is inevitable, if we are living our lives. It is one of the joys of life to meet wonderful and admirable people, and one of the sacrifices of life to be able to know them only so well, despite even the occasional opportunity for something more (if that is what it was).
I call it a sacrifice, but I guess that is not to say that something is not gained in place of what cannot be had. And to have not made any sacrifice would only diminish something else as the price for some new, and probably fleeting romance. This much I know from experience.
But the truth is, despite my "maturity" in the face of such an encounter, I am in a real state of mourning. Why I should be so, I don't know. This person makes my heart ache, and closing the door is not easy. But it is closing, as it must. I hope some day we can be good friends.
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