Posted by kiddo on June 16, 2001, at 3:11:30
I know I'm going to regret writing this as soon as I hit the submit button, but at this point I don't care, that always comes later.
I feel like I'm going to freak out any minute and wish Dr. Bob had put a chat room on here too. I could use another human bean (as my daughter says) to talk to.
I've been having a lot of flashbacks lately, opened up waaaayyyy to much to about my past to my martial arts instructor (freaking out in class, so I had to tell him something) my dad's birthday is coming up this week, and I miss him... I've been a hair's length away from having a panic attack all day and have to wonder how much more I can take. I haven't had the urge to hurt myself for a really long time, and don't want to go back to that again, so I'm hoping that posting here will help.
Has anyone ever felt like they are fighting a losing battle? If so, what keeps you going?
My pdoc changed my Zoloft to Geodon, and I couldn't tolerate it for whatever reason, now I'm taking nothing and my moods are about to kill me if my family doesn't do it first. I don't even want to talk to my shrink right now, I'm really pissed off at him (sorry Dr. Bob-hope that doesn't count against me) because I can be I guess because I can't find a valid reason.
I'm SICK to death of feeling this way, how many years does a person have to deal with this kind of stuff before it ends? I can't TAKE anymore. I feel like chucking this pc out the window, and I don't know why. I can't understand it, and I'm sick high heaven of taking meds. Sheesh, I feel like an addict sometimes, the downside is that nothing I take is addictive!!!
Please somebody just say something to keep me from becoming a basket case again. I real close to the psych ward, and THAT would make me suicidal... I couldn't live through that again.
Thanks for listening and sorry for rambling,
Kiddo
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