Posted by sar on May 8, 2001, at 0:01:53
In reply to Re: (Bingeing) Alcoholics Unite!! » dreamer, posted by JahL on May 7, 2001, at 13:44:10
I verymuch like being intoxicated. I just dont know if I know where to draw the line...apparently I've no ability to stop drinking regardless of how drunk I am despite my original aim to just be "high," relaxed, what have you...it doesn't end that way. in blackout i can drink whiskey like water (i've been told. it's slightly disconcerting to imagine.)
Alcohol seems so integral to socializing that I wonder how this whole thing will go over with me. A week or 2 ago some of my new co-workers invited me to a movie & bar afterwards, then after the movie they decided they'd actually rather have coffee at a diner (& I didn't know these ppl, they probably can't sense the extent of my shyness *or* my extreme rowdiness when drinking) and I couldn't do it, made up a lame excuse & went home (knowing it would be sober hanging out)...I get bored & uncomfortable without alcohol in the equation...
I have a certain affection for pot because I know it so well and feel as if it's saved me at times. After I cut down smokin pot it seemed as if it agitated my sp rather than relieving it; the last time I smoked w/ ppl I became so overly aware of what was going on that I thought maybe I'd have a heart attack, could hear blood pulsing in my ears & just didn't want to be there anymore...smoking alone tho is absolutely joyful, I can lay back to music completely blissed-out...down here the weed is pretty much yr basic shwag from Mexico, cheap & plentiful...the good stuff is harder to get but worth it.
> Like me tho', he's not an alcoholic; we both drink (drunk) for the escape from dysphoria getting high provides.
Well that's why most ppl drink, bay....it all goes hand in hand, I think...alcohol's beautiful when not abused. I'm glad you gave up bingeing, what made you stop? I know what you mean about crawling outta yr skin while not on something...tho i am envious of yr better weed prospects! i tend to do whatever drug is presented to me. i'm highly curious. (escapist?)irie,
sar
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