Posted by hash on April 17, 2001, at 19:40:27
In reply to Re: Zoloft Marijuana » hash, posted by Wendy B on April 14, 2001, at 8:22:53
> Hey Hash!
> What have you been up to these days, and how are you feeling since you first posted? Please bring us up to date, and hope you're going to have a nice Easter (if you celebrate it...)
> Warm regards,
> Wendy
>
>
Hey everyone, well I stopped taking Zoloft about 7 days ago... I loose my temper alot quicker, I am very depressed all the time, think about suicide alot. But I've been thinking about depression, and life. One of the main reasons I got depressed was because I had no friends and was having a very hard time making them. Whenever someone comes up to me and starts to have a conversation with me, I start worrying severely about what my next words will be, will I sound cool, what will he/she think when I say this? I think I have a big fear of regection. I started thinking that maybe its the people around me rather than myself, maybe all of these people are assholes that make fun and attack every little thing someone does wrong. I think people get depressed for a reason, I think it means something needs to change. My life is really lame right now. I am only 15 once and if I continue going the rate im going now, I dont think I'll have any great childhood memories to look back on (my biggest fear). Life is of no value to me right now. I have to do something to change that.
I'm thinking about running away to california for the summer. In the movies cali seems to have alot of nice people that dont judge other people so quickly. Memphis tennessee is the exact opposite. Does this sound like a good idea? I mean if I am REALLY depressed here. Im having a really hard time, any advice you could give me on this subject?
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