Posted by ksvt on October 16, 2000, at 20:29:48
In reply to Re: Guilt about depression - feedback please, posted by noa on October 16, 2000, at 10:39:44
> Yes, I feel badly (guilt + shame, I think) about the effects of my depression on friendships, family relationships, job performance, and overal reliability.
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> I am trying to "undo" the damage now, which can be a discouraging process, without letting it depress me again!Thanks for all the responses. I think I do ok not obsessing about all of the bad things that have already happened because of depression, like friendships ignored, poor job performance (altho that one I may never get over), loss of money etc. What eats at me mostly is that even when I'm doing relatively well, there are still all of these residual side effects so I never really feel well, I just feel bad or better. I fortunately have really good insurance coverage - theoretically unmanaged care when it comes to mental health benefits. Purely out of the blue, my insurer started just ignoring my claims for therapy about 4 or 5 months ago. At one point they claimed that none of these claims showed up in their computer (altho they were all submitted separately) and I had to resubmit them as a group. Now they keep telling me my claims are under review to see why they are not being processed. My insurer gives itself 7 to 21 days to respond to inquiries, so every time i call it seems to trigger a new 21 day period. The only relevance to this thread is that I actually feel guilty about my extensive use of mental health resources. If I were my insurance company, I'd like not to be paying my claims, because there does seem to be no end to them. I know that there are tons more expensive diseases out there and I'm really pretty healthy otherwise, but if I view my entitlement to mental health care and benefits with a more jaundiced eye, how can I expect the insurance industry to act more responsibly? ksvt
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