Posted by ksvt on September 26, 2000, at 7:13:57
In reply to Epiphany! I know why I feel this way!, posted by Racer on September 25, 2000, at 23:25:27
> I figured it out, all by myself:
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> Yeah, they are truly idiotic. They made a mess of things. I shouldn't blame myself, but I do. You know why?
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> BECAUSE I THOUGHT I WAS SUPPOSED TO FIX IT ALL FOR THEM!!!!!!
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> Now, as we all know, 'between the reality and the illusion/falls the shadow", so I still feel as though it's my fault, but at least I know that's because I thought I could walk in and fix things for them. So, realistically, I can say that a big sigh is in order, and then moving on.
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> So, now all I have to do is remind myself that if I could really fix everything, I'd have to be pope or president or chair of the UN or something unpleasant, and it's much better to be an average employed person than perfect. After all, I really don't want to have to seduce interns or anything, so the presidency really isn't so enticing...
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> Besides, I'm nice, I cook well (even my mother, who buries acorns in the back yard for the winter, says so), and I can be funny. People might actually like me even if I'm not perfect in every way.
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> Hell, even Mary Poppins was only *PRACTICALLY* perfect in every way...
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> Now, any advice on how to remember these pearls of wisdom next time?Congrats for analyzing this so well. I don't have alot of advice, since I seem to get on the "I need to be perfect track" without even realizing it. I can tell you that I'm very impressed with the way that you 1) advocated for yourself, and 2) had the guts to get out when you realized that your best advocacy wasn't getting you anywhere. These folks were idiots. If you had stayed in that situation you would have probably felt bad about putting up with something you shouldn't, so in my book, you did everything right. Maybe the next time you feel so bad about yourself, you can look back on this experience as one where you did not allow a bad experience be your fault and it will help you remember that doing that is not where you want to go. Good luck. ksvt
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