Posted by roo on September 14, 2000, at 9:42:25
I recently broke off an engagement to a wonderful guy
who I loved dearly. Something in me couldn't go through
with it. It's been nearly 3 months, and I can't feel at
peace with my decision, and I"m stuck: I don't feel I
can go back with him, and be committed towards marriage
(and marriage is something he really wants), and I'm
having a very hard time letting him go. I get really
anxious when I think about marriage, or going back to
him and pressure of marriage being in the background for
us. I don't know what to do. I think about it constantly
and am getting nowhere. I've started praying because I'm
at such a loss.
I've sometimes wondered if this is related to my depression,
and possible ptss issues--I've never felt this anxious in
my life. I've always had the sleepy do nothing sort of
depression, but it's switched to a restless, keyed-up
anxious sort of state where I fear I might go nuts, and
have to be committed or something.
I've tried researching the internet on this subject--
severe anxiety related to getting married, but I haven't
found much--just the ordinary cold feet stuff--this is
a lot deeper than just ordinary cold feet.
Have any of you depression sufferer's out there experienced
big time fear and anxiety regarding marriage?
poster:roo
thread:546
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