Posted by rjlockhart37 on November 4, 2013, at 0:10:33
its 12am, im up almost going to bed, but i have a feel to write a post for people who are having a hard time, including thoughts of not living. So, from since 2003, i have suffered from depression, its inward depression, no knows how i feel, and i don't let people channel my pain because i know this is something that ill deal with myself. But if you are having similar circumstances, look at whole picture of life, and know that there are millions of ways to change, and getout of the ruts. Depression, usally if its chemcical you can't get out of it, so the only things on the market that can dull it is caffeine, and alcohol....but if a doctor is envolved, antidpressant treatment should be considered. There are controlled substances you can get, both stimulants, and traquilizers....they are effective but see this is what happens, the body starts to adapt to the effects, it expects to get the smooth, or stimulation it gives, and it actually can cause a handicap to a person where they have to have it, or can't function corrently. All of the drugs i've taken, and meth i've used....the best plan for right now is learn how to function with no controlled substances, it takes about a year or more to adapt, but integrate television, food, things that people enjoy, wine.....break the addict mentality....
so... i have a addict mentality, to find any substance to change the way I feel, im not satified with how i feel normally....actually its miserable, thats why i look to methamphetamine, or anything to signifantly alter the brain chemistry....to change and get high....have to redo the pleasure expectation, have to narrow it down to normal things, not smoking a meth pope, or using other stuff.....you have to learn that there are other ways of pleasure.
But let me get back to the main thing, the feeling of not wanting to live anymore is a main cause of suicide in the US, its the pain, and learn to regulate and it and make a descion that your not going to die until your 80years old....i've already made the choice that i am going to live LONG time, and all the things that happened in the previous years are not going to matter....little things that cause much pain, its little things, cut them off and move on....
make a statement inside:
1) I am going to live until i am old2) No one is going to destroy me
3) I will not destroy myself
4) I will move on, and learn new things on the way...
5) I will make my own pleasure, and break my old mentality of feeling nothing but pain or depression
6) will make myself valuable
7( write a journal or post things on the net of the pain, and let other people hear it, and learn to get rid of negative things....
8) get a group of people together that understand the pain, and make goals, and support and love, or someone who understands and will have unconditional love
9) think smart of the whole picture...of the pain, life, and what is causing it, and plan long term effects of it, and things you can do to change it
10) always have love inside, warmness, people run away from people who are mean and cold, you have to let love inside....bitterness can cause deteriation in personality usally to hateful things.
11) look at yourself in the mirror and say this is who i am, and i know you and understand your pain, i will do anything for you because you are me.
12) channel with other people of their diffrent pain, or feelings assoicated with hopelessness....and learn how its similar to yours....maybe phone call them, message, do a daily contact with how your feeling and how to both help eachother13) this is not a good suggestion, but i smoke nicotine, and yes it does create mild pleasure and comfort....and it does help with depression with me....so there are smokeless ciggerettes that do not cause cancer...the vapor nicotine....when you have time alone and you feel awful, try puffing on the vapor ciggerette, its the nicotine that will help depression.....
14) look through pictures of the past, open up a picture book of your past, and enjoy looking at it, and then make a picture book of the future of yourself
15) spirituality does help with depression because of the belief that is assoicated with it in God, or many other things, its faith healing....beliving in something long enough will show results, just stay on the thought until the brain acts on it.
16) push away negative memories, and deal with them only in a contructive way to rid the pain that is current17) do researching on your favorite things, but if you don't have much energy or motivation, wellbutrin, adderall, ritilin, or prozac will help the nuerotransmitters....to increase insight
18) get out of the depression screen, where you see things grey, and not stimuating to the mind, its like blindfolders that get over your eyes, it makes everything grey and unpleasant, like walking around in fog, or heavy mist, its gloomy, boring, nothing stimuating at all....and do a new realization of what you see....change the the blindfolders of depression, and realize how you can change the way you feel with help, and deep thought.
19)music to channel the pain, and slowly change the music to new emotion and then act on that new tune....
20)avoid people that make fun of pain, and who you are....
thats it....good night friend...
r
not a scholar but understand distress
Med:
Prozac 60mg
Lamictal 400mg
Zyprexa 20mg
Nuvigil 250mg
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