Posted by sleepygirl2 on December 11, 2011, at 11:13:35
In reply to Re: quick.. someone say something psychological » sleepygirl2, posted by Dinah on December 11, 2011, at 8:41:24
My t didn't bring it up, and it was something I pursued on my own. He didn't oppose the idea though.
I have enough day to day interaction that I feel exposed anyway. I think most disapprove of me anyway, so if they were up front about it, I wouldn't be shocked.
Here's where my t pops into my head and say something like "do you think other people are afraid of rejection too?".
My Pdoc might suggest that I don't like the other people I imagine not liking me. That last one could be true since I just don't like people that I perceive as overly judgmental.As for mental health providers in general, I suppose they've got those human limitations, biases and self interest that they carry with them. The problem is that their sweeping judgments would seem to hold some type of power, backed up by some assumed authority on the topic of humanity.
I mean the sh*t I still carry with me because of some idiot in authority's ignorant statement is ridiculous.One that comes to mind...
High school (what traumas they can hold)
I was in a section of classes of kids expected to do well academically. I wasn't openly disrespectful of authority at the time, just didn't perform, and did so quietly, consumed on a daily basis with disabling anxiety and pessimism. The principal (a nun- so much for religious compassion) told me with disdain, that she "felt sorry for my mother", I was already deeply ashamed of myself.
Also, post impulsive overdose earlier this year...
My biggest regret was calling that stupid hotline. (I suppose I was afraid that I had taken too much, but I imagined I would "just talk" to someone.). Well, sitting there, in the hospital, imprisoned, the "doctor"-acquaintance of a few minutes, tells me "your doctor is very disappointed in you. He says you've been labile for weeks.".
The following is fictional: I say "Oh, you know sister jackass?". "Ah yes, it's true, I'm a disappointment in every sense of the word, truly a burden to the world. May I kindly exit this facility as I am beneath the dirt under your feet? Since I'm not dead, and was likely never going to be, can I crawl back into the hole from which I came?".
"As far as my mood lability goes, I apologize for my wanton ways. The medicinal agents I was prescribed likely, and understandably, objected to me as well."Eh... I've gone on too long, and forgotten how this related to the point.
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