Posted by Christ_empowered on November 30, 2011, at 22:09:31
In reply to Re: What if I recovered from narcissism?, posted by Solstice on November 30, 2011, at 21:22:59
I think you're right on the money, Solstice. One of my friends, who typically keeps the conversation light, said to me that my madness "intrigues her." She went on to say that it just didn't seem like bipolar or schizophrenia or...anything, although it does seem that, for now at least, drugs help.
So, I think you're very much spot on. And its hard to get support. As a Christian, I can't be actively gay, so when I say "yeah, I'm celibate because of my beliefs" to most mental health people, they look at me like I'm (even more) crazy. And of course I don't get support from actively gay gays, because we don't have similar beliefs. Then the church (Protestants, at least) seem to think you can either pray it away or at least not talk about it. Ugh.
But that's not my biggest problem. I think at this point its how to live after having been in such a terribly dark, hellish place for so long. Faith is quite helpful--essential, really--but doubt hits and...well, it can be rough. Plus, I used to be moronic. I mean, I was basically the village idiot for 3 years, until everything "came together" through what I believe to be divine intervention and appropriate medical care.
As for the "psychosis"...I just don't know what to do. Whatever it is, it bothers me sometimes. You're right about it not being "psychosis" as we think of "psychosis," because I've experienced that, and its terrible, but its also quite different in intensity and "feel" than what I have now.
The good news is that I'm happier, smarter, and on my way to being productive.
Thanks again for your posts. I can tell you're an empathetic, caring individual.
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