Posted by Annabelle Smith on February 8, 2011, at 20:48:41
In reply to Re: one more thing..., posted by Daisym on February 8, 2011, at 15:43:46
Thanks both of you, for your thoughts. I appreciate your responses.
It is just sooo hard and sooo devastating to wait this long and not be able to meet, especially since I feel like time is not on my side. I worry that I won't be able to sleep tonight. And then I am so scared my session will be canceled. This is so hard.
About faking it-- yes, I think I see and agree with you that we are in different roles for different people and in different situations. Also, we probably shouldn't wear our hearts totally on our sleeve, like the world is our therapists' couch. But...I really feel a sense of being fake that I just don't think most of the people around me have to struggle with on a daily basis-- I feel it to the sense that it dramatically interrupts my daily functioning. It makes me afraid. It makes me mess up interviews. I makes me be able to be close to no one.
I look around me and a lot of people, while they aren't always doom and gloom, do, I think, have a reasonably honest way of presenting themselves. They don't always smile if things are fine. They aren't mean about it, but they are honest.
That I am not.
poster:Annabelle Smith
thread:978909
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