Posted by garnet71 on June 12, 2009, at 18:24:25
In reply to Re: New therapy from PDoc - can anyone explain?, posted by BirdSong on June 11, 2009, at 23:46:05
You know alot about this stuff BirdSong (I always want to call you SongBird...lol)
Thanks, I looked it up, it seems he was doing psychodynamic therapy. I never really took the time to learn about the different types of therapy. He didn't tell me yet how he'd be treating me-he said that would be after history. I guess he has to first decide whether or not I am a candidate for that type of therapy--to see what my issues are, and to see if I 'take' to him.
I realize this is the type of therapy I need-yes, it is wonderful (fun? lol). You are right about the insights--I have a load of them from the past 2 days now that I have composed myself! Insights that articulate things I've wondered about, but never knew (like my defense mechanisms), especially how I just compartmentalize scary emotions. I realize now I just put them aside somewhere, and never look back...when I felt the anxiety wanting to emerge after talking to him, the different type of anxiety I just noticed, I realized that's exactly where it comes from. I think I have 2 types of anxiety though. This one comes from my spleen area, I felt it and knew it was there, this is the one I've had forever; so odd that I have a place in my body that refers to it. I never noticed this before.
I'm fascinated with this whole thing. I've never felt transferrence like that with anyone, rarely felt strong emotions with any therapist before.
But he was only "getting my history", so it's strange I took to him so quickly. I think part of it is that I feel 100% trust in him. I already had preconceived notions about him before we even met. His son, also a doctor, left a lasting impression upon me (2 years or less ago). I realize he is not his son, but the whole situation led me to the father. I'm so lucky I found him and I believe his is very skilled and he has been a psychiatrist for 40+ years, so very experienced.
Yes, so exhausting. And I bombed my first assignment today-3 weeks into the semester. Bombed it really bad. I've had it all together, so far, despite panick attacks and anxiety. I'll have to talk to him about that. No disassociation though.
Question: I know when I see him next week, he's going to ask me how I felt about last time. So I'll have to tell him I feel a strong attachment to him. Do you think he'll say he can't treat me because of that? I'm just afraid he's going to say that while I think this is totally what i need. I cannot not tell him. I can't even think in the room with him. He called me back about my concerns and didn't say much. He said we went through a lot, and we will see how it goes next time. The word 'reassurance' keeps popping up in my mind. I think that was the motivation behind my calling him. I crave reassurance from him.
How long have you been in this type of therapy?
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