Posted by Daisym on June 3, 2009, at 23:44:10
In reply to To All.. Sorry, but very, very long.., posted by antigua3 on June 3, 2009, at 7:55:33
You really need camp comfort right now...
It may be that you are really feeling all the feelings that the little girl felt during the near drowning episode - which have been activated by the dream - but aren't necessarily about the dream. (if that makes sense) You've clearly been triggered very badly and often hiding is what happens when things are this painful. So I agree with the idea that your little one has gone into hiding for awhile.
All the crying, and the hurt seem to signal that you are touching some very deep wounds and in order to get it up and out - you have to almost relive it. Somatic memories are powerful and often evade interpretation. Bringing the past feelings into the present is really, really painful. And really, really necessary.
Take gentle care of yourself right now. Sit with the sadness - grieve the lost childhood and grieve the truth you are facing. The fact that there are threes every where does make me think that you are trying to reenact the original triangle - and it must be terrifying to face the work of that.
Hang in there. Write as much as you need to. We are here.
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