Posted by FindingMyDesire on June 2, 2009, at 21:55:02
In reply to Integration**possible trigger, posted by antigua3 on June 2, 2009, at 20:47:58
Dear Antigua,
How hard to have those thoughts and feelings. I want to say something so that you feel supported.I guess my main thought to this is something I think is really, really important. Integration means a coming together, a combination, becoming whole. I hear you that you don't feel like you can access these wonderful and beautiful things that you mentioned about your inner child. But they aren't gone or your pdoc wouldn't have used the word integration.
They are *not* gone, in my opinion. Maybe your dream is a sign of the beginning of integration? The middle? Somewhere on a life-long continuum of work towards this end? She did not die. It sounds like it was a really, super important dream. But I know that integration would not mean "gone."
I know I'm being strongly opinionated and may not be saying it the right way. But I hear your fear and your pain. It almost sounds like you feel abandoned by her. She has not left you. Cause she is part of you. You have in there the "innocent, vibrant one who possessed all the hopes, creativity, dreams, love of life and joy."
I don't know much about your particular situation, but it just seems like this has to be the truth.
Hope what I have said is OK. I'm sure thinking of you.
FMD
poster:FindingMyDesire
thread:899140
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