Posted by alexandra_k on May 15, 2009, at 10:40:22
My t is on vacation next week. Then the clinic is closed on Monday for some holiday or something and then... Well... Either we get one more or I'm off by then. Still need to arrange my flights (I'm such a procrastinator). Would be easier if there were a travel agent close to campus, but there isn't, so I'll try emailing the campus travel agency back home. Should have done it already, I know, but there it is.
Mostly talked about my flatmate. The situation really isn't working out for me, but I'm off soon. She... Well she just lives in her little druggy world, I realize. Doesn't respect our privacy (took a photo of other flatmates room without checking with him first so she could advertise the house - he hadn't even made his bed!), Only talks to us when she wants something from us ('I'm soooo stressed about what is going to happen with the house when you guys go' - subtext 'why don't you guys help me out by paying another months rent'), is not there for us at all ('gee sorry your father died i'm headed off out see ya'), doesn't respect our wishes (gets a cat despite flatmates allergies then she proceeds to neglect the cat, continues to smoke mj in the house despite my telling her that I'd really prefer it if the house didn't reek of mj). Sigh. Looking forward to getting back but have that horrible 'I'm lazy, I'm not productive, the stuff I've done is all crap' feeling already. Trading in one kind of stress for another. Still, I formally signed up for the latter kind of stress, I guess. Will be nice to be around my friends back home and I'm sure at some point I'll start feeling productive lol.
Looking forward to seeing my old t. It has been nearly a year. He said he would save me a spot but... Not two spots. So back to once a week for... Well... Less than a year. I dunno. In a funny kind of mood today. Came out to work but really... I just think I might go back home and play computer games for a while...
1) Book flights.
Then I can play games. Okay?
Feels weird that I might not see my t here again, or that I might only see her once more. Todays session wasn't really a 'final session' kind of session. I guess... The finality seems unresolved. She mentioned a couple sessions back that we would only have a couple more and wondered whether my freak out (just the one) had anything to do with that. I don't think it did, really, don't keep track of weeks very well. But I feel that I need to do something... To thank her. Have some Manuka honey I got while in NZ... Might pass that onto her and get her a card or something. Leave them at reception. I feel like I need to thank her in some way... I... Will miss her in a way. I think we were finally finding our rhythm. Sigh. She really is very good at just letting me talk and... Well mostly... I really do talk. Free association kind of ramblings. She didn't really know me well enough to interpret really... But we were making some kind of progress yeah.
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thread:895927
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