Posted by Partlycloudy on December 20, 2008, at 18:05:30
In reply to Re: You OK? » Partlycloudy, posted by llurpsienoodle on December 20, 2008, at 17:24:59
Yeah, I keep hearing that it took 35 years for me to fully recall what happened because that when I was finally prepared to process it. (It sure doesn't feel that way right now, yowza!) But I know my head and body were doing me a favor of some kind for those years; and that I have a caring community of healthcare professionals working in concert for my best wellbeing that I've ever before experienced in my lifetime. That just astounds me - that this timing really IS so right that I have all these wonderful people helping me.
STILL.
Going through this right now, being trigger-happy with the trauma crap (more like very unhappy), being unsure of what I face every day, and then not being able to rely on my handful of chemicals I swallow each day and night, well, that's not something I counted on. The see-saw is pretty much unbalanced.
And Christmas, well, I could well do with that taking a delay of about a month of two. I actually managed to do the shopping (commerce trumps!) but the card thing, well, that was abandoned.
And I officially am not cooking any food at the moment. Everything comes out of the freezer and goes into the microwave. Husband, who is used to my proficiency in the kitchen, is appalled. This man actually CAN'T boil water. ("Is this enough? Too much? Not enough?") So it's not like I can leave him to produce an edible meal without being his sous chef. And frankly, I'm not interested in eating, nothing tastes good. So the freezer stuff is just about right for me. I can take it or leave it.
I can still make a cuppa tea, though. Tea still helps.
Anyways, done blathering for now.
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