Posted by I need a hug on October 24, 2007, at 0:43:06 [reposted on November 9, 2007, at 14:39:14 | original URL]
Hi. This is the first time I've ever done anything like this but I don't know what else to do. I have totally withdrawn from the outside world. My two best friends have died in the past two years and seven family members have died this year alone. I have been seeing a wonderful psychiatrist for about 9 years. She has been treating me for major depression and anxiety. I'm 47, single and live alone. My problem is about 7 or 8 months ago I started having strong feelings toward my doctor. I wrote more about this on the relationship board but thought this might be a better place to get to know some people since I'm new to all of this. I don't know what to do about these feelings. I fantasize about her constantly. I want to take her in my arms and tell her how I feel but I know I can't do this. She is a wonderful doctor and I would never do anything to jeopardize our doctor-patient relationship and I know ,realistically, that is all it ever can and will be. Can anyone help me? How can I stop these thoughts? I'm on disability so I'm home all the time. I have a lot of health problems on top of the mental ones. I have a condition called fibromyalgia. It's main characteristics are chonic pain, chronic fatigue and insomnia. Therefore, I don't sleep well. It also affects your ability to concentrate. I used to read a lot but I can no longer do that. Between not sleeping and not concentrating, I can't find other things to keep my mind occupied, so all I so is think of her. Well, I've rambled on long enough but I feel better just putting my thoughts in to words. I hope I will be able to offer as well as receive help from these boards. I would like to pass something along to you that I read years ago. It's a suggestion I've tried to live by. "God gave us two ears but he only gave us one mouth. Perhaps, that was his way of telling us we should listen twice as much as we speak." Thanks for listening.
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