Posted by Dory on September 26, 2007, at 19:36:03
i'm cracking at the seams. i am sorry i am not being very helpful to anyone. i know some people need it and i have gotten so much.. i'll try harder.
i am so swamped. so screwed. oh boy. so much work. so many high expectations on me. so much riding on things. My portable drive got corrupted and i lost a whole weekend of research. hahahahahaha.. not funny haha.
proposals. deadlines. oh my.
T tomorrow... i cancelled... then re-scheduled because of a mistake in next week's schedule.. it would have left me a long time without T... and the following week he is away... then away for part of a week before the end of october.
i have a difficult project coming up... i am so lacking in the confidence to pull it off. scared.
the two-self thing is making life hard... it's like i can't just slip back and forth like before.. i have one side hating the other all the time and it makes me tired and afraid. The question i know my T would ask is "if it is making *you* tired, who is that 'you?'" Ok, sure Mr smarty pants, there must be a third component which is somewhere in between. i hate it when he is right.
poster:Dory
thread:785381
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