Posted by ClearSkies on September 22, 2007, at 17:28:54
In reply to Re: Is this disassociation?, posted by twinleaf on September 22, 2007, at 17:10:14
> I think it might be. I experienced something very similiar- just not being able to know how I actually looked when I looked in the mirror- in the few months after the rupture with my T. At first, I thought my eyes needed checking- they were fine-- then I realized that it was related to the tremendous anxiety I felt about being rejected. I could see that my hair was combed, and that I had put lip=gloss on- but it didn't add up to a whole me that I was familiar with. It's gradually disappeared now that I have formed a supportive relationship with the new T. Is there something happening in your life, or in your therapy, which is increasing your anxiety by a major amount? Even if you aren't sure, you could tell your T. about this, and ask for extra support while you try to find out what's happening.
Yes, I've had quite an upheaval over this summer with family stuff, getting medication sorted out, and finally moving forward on some critical issues in therapy. And at this same time that all this upheaval is happening, I'm feeling kind of fractured and disconnected from myself. I even abandoned doing yoga, which I've loved doing, because I just don't have a very firm sense of my self and body. I definitely feel that if I stood on one foot that I'd keel right over - no body confidence whatever.
I'm seeing my T again this week and I'll bring this with me. In the meantime, I had stopped using my Xanax prescription because I've been feeling pretty numb, but I think I will get back to my daily prescribed dosage and see if that gets some normalcy going.
Thanks, Twinleaf.
CS
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